It’s not really worth expending energy on anger or rage. I’ve wisely learned that those things rain havoc on my physical being. I’ve decided on this approach instead. I may be annoyed, but it is healthier in my case.
Yesterday I decided to review test results from my initial hospitalization in light of my decision to NOT have bypass surgery and go instead with EECP treatments to spur the development of the collateral vessels around the blockages in the main arteries that feed my heart. I’ve been saying all along that I believed there is evidence that the process was already happening judging by scans done earlier this year and improved overall health of the heart. I do not pretend to be an expert in medicine or cardiology. I can, however read. I can see. I can do comparative analysis, and have very good attention to detail. Maybe even better than that of those expert and trusted with my care. It’s no news that I bear distrust toward these professionals. Here is what they saw and did not talk about with me, and it has been hiding in plain sight in black and white on my cardiac catheterization report since June 10, 2011:
LCX: This vessel is 100% occluded proximally. There is a long OM which fills retrogradely from collaterals.
RCA: This vessel is 100% occluded proximally and fills retrogradely via collaterals from the LAD septal branches.
Those two above, in plain English, indicate what is termed “natural bypass”. Or at least the strong beginnings of the process.
To add what I quietly call interest to all this, prior to my last cardiac catheterization in February of this year, the intervention cardiologist performing it introduced himself and looking over the prior report stated that we were going in to check my current status and implant a stent. I presume this was intended for the partially blocked LAD. The team nurse quickly questioned why he would do that, as the cardiologist who ordered the procedure did so in preparation for triple bypass. It is all becoming painfully clear to me now. I am doing the right thing staying away from that crew. Above lies my proof.
quod erat demonstrandum
It has been a while since I have even thought about this thing I consider a scourge on the the current state of health care, let alone comment on it or raise my voice about it. It came to mind today in a roundabout manner in the course of my EECP treatments. I am about a third of the way through to date. My vitals are taken daily before and after each session, and for the last week my blood pressure has been trending downward. Ordinarily, this would be a good thing, however, the trend is dipping low enough to be of concern. In particular, the systolic number is at an all time low for me. My attendants even had each other check it to be certain. This phenomenon can be brought on by any number of reasons, not the least of which being the treatment itself improving the function of my heart. I am convinced that at this point my medications are over-dosed. Two of the blood pressure lowering drugs were doubled by my cardiologist at the beginning of this year in anticipation of an open heart surgery procedure to bypass several main cardiac arteries. Since I decided to not go that route and do the EECP treatment it is only logical that the dosages should return to where they were. I explained this to the nurses, adding that I was aware that no one at the center is in a position to advise on prescriptions. I also added that ordinarily these things are determined by my cardiologist, but I was considering changing him for someone more attuned to the approach I am taking. In so many words, I was honestly informed that I will not find any such cardiologist, not even the hospital group attached to the EECP center. The reason being that there is no big money attached to this method. As if I didn’t already know this. People have to demand this therapy. If they even are aware of it. The bill-for-service machine driving US heath care isn’t going anywhere any time soon. I’ll just stick with the guy who knows my history the best for now and hope he can deal with me.